I feel like I have just been barreling through life lately.
When I try to drum up a mental picture of what I look like most of the time, it’s
not with a calm, graceful confidence that I see myself taking on life. I see
myself running Phoebe style trying to get from one point to the next. Work,
Gym, Home, sleep, Store, Work, Home, sleep. Back and forth, wildly flailing
from one thing to the next. The thing is I don’t feel bad about how my life is or like I am doing a bad job,
like desperate that things are too busy or I’m missing out or whatever else you
are supposed to feel as a working mom. I feel fulfilled and purposeful. I am
good at my job. I am good at being a mom. Our home is not a health hazard.
Everyone eats. Everyone is clean. I am pulling this off. Of course I have my
moments of self doubt and sheer exhaustion, but for the most part I feel like I
am kicking some boo-tay. As a result of all the general life dominating things have slowed down here on the blog, but seasons of life and it's just a phase and all that stuff people tell you when you realize there aren't enough hours in the day.
In case the blog world hasn’t thrown up enough hearts and
pink and red your way to alert you to the impending holiday, tomorrow is
Valentine’s day. While my home is not all
decked out, I have tried to make some time to at least acknowledge the holiday.
Maybe I’ll even pick up a card for Anderson on my way home from work. Romantic!
I made heart garlands – one for me and one for a friend. I
kept the yellow one and sent away the pink one. The crochet pattern is from
Heloise V, and I used this tutorial to walk me through how to make one. It was
a fun, relaxing little project.
I’ve also let Sawyer make some “Balentimes.” He is such a
clever train obsessed child that he decorated his hearts with train tracks and
more hearts glued onto the train tracks to make a heart train. Then I bought
him some scissors at Micheal's and any civilized balentime making went down the
drain. He has since shredded every piece of paper in sight to bits.
I also pretended to be a fun mom and made Sawyer's valentines
to take to school for his friends. Just search Pinterest for "heart crayons" and
about 1,000 links pop up. I used cheap heart shaped ice trays from Target to
make the crayons. I melted them at 185 degrees for about 10-13 minutes. You
just kind of have to watch them and maybe use a toothpick now and then to push
the half melted crayons down. I made a little card in PicMonkey, glue dotted the crayons to the cards, and wrapped
them in little plastic bags in the hopes that these would actually make it home
to the kids. We’ll see.
That’s all the crafty stuff I have been working on lately.
We are in the middle of a sort of unplanned living room redecoration project. I
bought a new couch and chairs and then decided that everything in the room has
to change. That's how it works.
We had the living room repainted a light grey color and
since I am going to for a more modern, clean look, I also decided the chair
rail has to come down. I’m not a fan of chair rails and they are especially unnecessary
in the living room. I removed one section and am sort of dreading all the
sanding, spackling, and repainting I will have to do to be chair rail free.
I considered hiring someone but 1.) I don't even know what to search for to find someone. Chair rail remover? and 2.) I'm a control freak and I don't want anyone but me making a mess of my house. So. It's up to me to get it done.
After we are chair rail-less I want to build a full wall shelving unit because I am
nothing if not crazy/ambitious/unrealistic about my time. I’m hoping to have
this done by May, so we’ll see. I’m even considering taking a couple of days off
work just to get it all done while Sawyer is in school.
I also have my big cross stitch project to share but I haven’t
been able to get any good pictures. Coming soon, I promise. It looks so good
hanging in our living room, especially since we have literally nothing else on the walls, missing chair rails, mismatched furniture and no curtains. It's the highlight of the room!
That’s all the crazy happening here. I’m feeling busy and blessed and hopeful. It’s
a good way to feel.









I love that dresser!!!! And the crayon hearts are so cute!!
ReplyDeleteIt's really, really good to hear the confidence you have in being a working mom. Most of the time I feel the same, but lately I've been having so much guilt and sadness, which is ridiculous but I think it's mostly due to other tragic circumstances in my family that make it harder to stay positive. Thanks for reminding me that I can do this, and do it well. And of course I adore all your crafting. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so excited to see more of your living room makeover! And I'm seconding Kathleen's virtual high five to you for feeling confident and complete lately. That's awesome. It seems silly to sit around worrying about all the things I'm not doing well instead of the things I AM doing well, every day. So I'm really glad to hear that you feel good about the way everything is going. Go Allison!
ReplyDeletePS, your heart garlands are adorable!
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